The Researcher's Plight: Guilt and Shame in Participatory Design and Action Research

This paper delves into the emotional landscape of researchers engaged in participatory design and action research. It addresses the less-discussed aspects of unwanted emotions, such as guilt and shame, experienced by researchers during and post-project. The paper explores the guilty dichotomy between the researchers' intent to contribute positively and the reality of unmet expectations. The unease stemming from perceived exploitation and the limitations of project impact is scrutinised, highlighting the tightrope walked in participatory design. Furthermore, the paper discusses the paradox of professional recognition versus the ongoing adversities faced by what may be marginalised communities. Through reflective analysis, this paper contributes to a deeper understanding of the emotional landscape traversed by researchers in participatory design and action research. It underscores the need for supportive frameworks that address these emotional aspects, advocating for ethical reflexivity and sustained engagement strategies that align closely with community needs and well-being.